My Dearest Reader,
I deeply apologize for such a a long leave of absence, and while I had hoped to keep personal matters out of my writing, I would like to share with you some thoughts that have been resurfacing as of late.
I never expected for people to enjoy my style of storytelling, but now find myself circling back, time and time again to the kind words I received so long ago.
I write nearly every day to decompress, to unwind, and to unload much of the weight from my shoulders. To be very honest, if I don’t put pen to paper and rid myself of my daydreams, they haunt me ceaselessly. To have clarity in my days, I have no choice but to write well into the evening.
However, it gradually became unnerving… was I really content with the pages of entries I so tirelessly mulled over, to just be pages for me alone to know? Curiosity challenged my resolve, I had simply wanted to just keep to myself, but in the end I was determined to know whether I was wrong to think that way at all. While very unsure of myself, I proceeded to post the pages I have uploaded thus far.
Though it was brief, I received far more feedback than anticipated, and found myself at a most difficult crossroads. If you love something, you must fight all your welled-up emotions and force yourself to step back and observe the road ahead. I apologize, I am never one to offer unsolicited advice, but your passions are some of the most precious things you possess. While magnificently inspiring objects of our inner most yearnings, they are also fragile… and alas, we live in turbulent times. Guard them with every ounce of strength you have, for I have seen firsthand that nothing breaks a person more than a broken dream. But surely the world is not as stark a place as I make it out to be; what can be broken, can also be put back together, in good time.
Nevertheless, I knew what I was choiced with. Either I could keep on posting despite my trepidations for starting at all, or I could stop and see if this was what I really wanted to do. I knew I had to simply walk away; if I was so inclined to continue what I began, after roughly a year (either shy of or just over), that would be the test where I could find my resolution.
I’m overjoyed to be back, now with the vim and vigor I desperately needed. I plan to continue where I left off and earnestly hope you enjoy all that is to follow. Thank you, and I wish you the best of holiday seasons.
Most Sincerely Yours,